What I Was Thinking When My Cousin Nick Came For A Visit

I invited my cousin, Nick, to dinner with Tom and me.  It was very nice to see him again, and I think he is a dear man.  I have to admit that I had an ulterior motive for inviting him.  Jordan Baker has been staying with us for so long now, and there are times when she just bores me.  I don’t want to be a bad hostess, but I think it is time she moves on.  She doesn't seem to have any plans to find another place to stay.  I wanted to introduce Jordan to Nick.  Maybe they will like each other and start to date.  That will give her something to do so I won’t have to deal with her hanging around all the time.  Nick is single and comes from money, so she should find that attractive.  He doesn't know about her past and the business about how she might have cheated while playing golf.  He needs a woman in his life, and Jordan needs to spend time doing things other than relaxing on my couch.  I think my plan is perfect.  I definitely saw some sparks between them at dinner tonight.  I even told them they should get married.  I also told Nick that he needs to take care of her.  Hopefully he will decide to spend more time with her now that I put the idea in his head.  If things go really well and they get married, I will be able to tell everyone that I knew all along they were perfect for each other.  Everyone will know how thoughtful and caring I am, and then Jordan will move out.  I am so glad that I came up with such a clever plan!

What I Was Feeling When I Hit Myrtle Wilson With Gatsby's Car

 I am so upset over all the unpleasantness I’m feeling from last night.  I just keep crying and I can’t think straight.  I thought I was in love with Jay Gatsby, but now I’m not sure.  My feelings are all mixed up and confused.  Tom knows about me and Jay, but I’m sure it will be alright.  He wants things to be settled and pleasant between us again.  I feel like that is best for me too.  It made me so angry when Tom was with other women.  Now he knows how it feels, and I’m glad.   I am sick thinking about giving up the wealth and comforts that life with Tom gives me.  I feel silly and foolish that I ever thought of leaving Tom for Jay.  I love Tom’s money and the respect everyone has for his family.  I cannot bear having our friends look down on me or talking behind my back about illegal things Jay has done to make his money.  I couldn't bear to be cut off from the social life that I enjoy.  Then on top of all these worries I have, on the way back from New York last night I hit a woman with Jay’s car.  She just ran out in front of the car, and there wasn't anything I could do.  She was in the way, and I was feeling so upset that the car just smashed into her.  It made me feel worse than I was already feeling, so I didn't even stop to see if she was alright.  She must live in the valley of ashes, so she isn't anyone I know or anyone very important.  Jay’s going to tell people he was driving, so I don’t have to worry about anyone finding out it was me. The whole situation will go away or Tom can pay some people to make things better.  I need to believe that it will all work out fine or I will just sit here all day and cry.  Tom and Jay will take care of me so I will try to settle myself and stop worrying.    

What I Was Thinking When I Spent The Afternoon At Mr. Jay Gatsby's House

                 My dear cousin, Nick, had me over for tea at his house today. When he called to invite me, he told me not to bring Tom along. I thought it was an odd request, but it really didn't matter to me if Tom was there or not, so I went alone like Nick asked. I had just arrived when I learned why Nick wanted me to come without Tom. A great love from my past, a man named Jay Gatsby, came to tea as well. At first, it was like seeing a ghost. He came into the living room wearing a white suit and silver shirt. I didn't know what to say or how to act. So many thoughts were running through my head, and I lost my composure for a few minutes.  It was so awkward. My mind went totally blank, and I didn't know what to say to him. I was trying to think of something to appropriate to say, but nothing came to my mind. Nick left Jay and me alone for a while, and I thought I should probably leave and go home. Then Jay and I started talking about our past and our memories of how things were between us five years ago. I think Jay is a wonderful man, and I can tell that he cares a lot about me. Jay lives next door to Nick, and he gave me a tour of his house. When I first saw his house, I could not believe how big it is. He has beautiful gardens outside and lovely furnishing inside. At first I was wondering why it was so important for him to show me everything, but then I realized that he wants me to know how wealthy he is. He wants me to know that he is worthy of me. I started thinking about how I decided to marry Tom because he has money. I realized that I should have waited for Jay instead. Jay has been in my heart since the first day I met him. I now know that I should never have married Tom. Jay Gatsby is the man for me. I am so happy that we are reunited!